Starting Over

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I’m in a not so good phase of my life. I’m lacking motivation, I’m anxious, uninspired and to top it all off, I gained almost all the weight that I had lost. I also feel like I have no one to talk to, since I don’t know anyone going through anything similar. I just feel like whenever I try to explain it, no one really gets it. I don’t see any progress in my life.

However, something deep down pushed me to try and find some motivation or inspiration today. I read somewhere that people like me often don’t do certain things just because we don’t “feel like it”. But not feeling like doing something doesn’t actually stop us from doing it. As much as I don’t “feel like” getting up in the morning, there’s no invisible force keeping me tied up to the bed. Whatever we feel about the things we have to do doesn’t have any impact on the ability of doing them. Or, at least, that’s how it should be.

I want to try and be more conscious and not let feelings control what happens in my day to day, specially when there are important things that I have to do.

I also found an app that sends me an inspirational or motivational quote every day. In fact, it was today’s quote that made me want to come and write. The quote was: “Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.” – George Bernard Shaw.

After thinking about it, besides agreeing with its meaning, this quote couldn’t be more perfect for where I am right now in life. Life shouldn’t be based on being passive, always waiting for what’s coming. We have to be the creators of our own reality; fight for the things we want and fight to be who we want to be.

I want to be the best version of myself, but first I want to learn how to be good to myself. I want to like myself. And one day I will.

Who do you want to be?



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